Semi smart, earthy crunchy MAMA

...again.  She is the one person I couldn't share my news with.  It is such a bummer.  She was my hero, my inspiration and my mentor throughout school.  She was the original do it all lady.  5 kids, a bachelors, a masters....she did it all.  She truly was my hero. 

 It has been so hard the last few months.  Being a mom I think has only served to sting my wounds more acutely.  Everytime I spend time with my kids and hear them laugh or play with me I become eerily aware that there is a hole in my life that my mom onced filled.  I realize with a swift blow that I don't have the wonderful mom my kids have and that makes me sad.  I feel like I am still a kid in need of my mom's advice and comfort sometimes still.

Ladies and Gents,

I have passed my National Board Exam and my Mass State Law Exam.  I practiced as the Pharmacist tonight while at work.  It was fun (read = no one yelled at me).  I get to play again tomorrow and I can't wait.  I'm a neard.  I love my kids, but I know they are going to be in super good hands at home with Papa.  Currently I am a free agent retailer.  Who knows where I'll end up, but somewhere for sure.

I was so excited to see that I passed my exam...if you were around the past week you would know I was dead certain I was going to fail my exam.  I actually started counting the days until I could re-take it, as well as find out what paperwork I needed to fill out.  I am a stress queen.  That is just my MO.  But to all who listened..THANKS.

Today when I found out I called Chris first since he has had to listen to me and all my worries for the past week.  Then my Dad because he knows I am a drama queen.  Then I talked to Nick, Kayla, Missy and my Grandpa.  Whew!  What a day. 

I started writing a book...sort of a memoir, but it will definitely be fiction as the result of all the things that have occurred over the last 10 months.

Here is a snippet from the book for your reading pleasure.

"A life is a story, and though your body goes where we can not your memories replay a story which will never be forgotten. My name is Sunny and this is the story of my life; of lives lost, wasted and intertwined but never forgotten."

Stay tuned and I will continue to share this story with you.

They need no introductions, they just make me feel good.

I'm missing my mom immensely today. It was my first day at my job (first job in 4 years). I just wanted to talk to her about it so bad and couldn't. I started looking through the pictures of her (I love looking at her smiling back at me) and realized that when you are so often the one wielding the camera you hardly get a shot of yourself in there. I hardly ever mind this except for right now. All I want is a picture of me and my mom. However, my sister (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!) sent me some pics of my mom and I snuck in one. Here were are just a few days before she passed away. Oh, how I miss her. CANCER SUCKS!